tw: mentions of abuse and enabling behavior
maybe, i wasn’t enough for you.
maybe, i worked too hard to fill the empty spaces in your life.
perhaps, that’s why i presumed you valued me whenever you treated me like a human being (i guess, i was too used to you treating me like the filth on the streets of sonipat).
but, then, you didn’t really care about me, did you? you simply thought me to be less useless and more bearable than the ones you continued to treat like filth.
well, i can’t really blame you for that… i was way too compliant. i was the one who made efforts to match your “high” and “progressive” standards.
and you… you thought me to be “just another bubbly girl from delhi”.
is that why you never took my pain seriously? is that why you labeled my trauma as “half info” and said that i was making a “big deal” out of everything? is that why you silently watched when an abuser ripped me apart with his sharp tongue? is that why you allowed him to keep fueling his male ego with my tears?
i tried…i tried a lot to get you to like me for who i was.
but, i guess, it was you who could never see me as anything but a “stupid delhi girl”.